Lost a friend today

[ozzie_gal]

***Normally I'm a stickler for correct spelling but my head is awash and I can't think so sorry for any bad spelling***

At 1am this morning an ambulance pulled up at the house 2 doors down, the home of a lady named maree, who's been a friend of our family for 40 years. She had enphesima and was on an oxygen tank. She passed out and her oxygen tube came loose..she wasn't getting oxygen to her brain.
One of her daughters arrived with the ambulance, they tried resussitating her but had to call in the top paramedic in geelong to come and work on her.
By 2:30am they were taken her to the hospital where she was on life support and was in a medically induced coma.During the day her 3 other daughters visited her and then they switched off her life support and she passed at 1pm.
Although she was sick, her death was sudden and unexpected and no one can totally understand how she died yet (if that makes sense) The funeral is going to be some time next week as she has to have a post mortom examination.
I'm in shock...I think. I haven't cried yet, and haven't really felt all that sad. I know she's better off now, I think that might be why I'm not sad yet. I'll be a blubbering mess at the funeral, I know that already. But right now, I don't really feel anything and I know thats wrong, I should feel something. Come to think of it, I've been like that with all those close to me who've passed. I've never felt anything when I found out they had passed (with exception to my friend Janelle who passed not so long ago) I don't feel sad or angry or anything, I literally feel nothing...that's messed up, right?

[Warrior-Maid]

Your in shock Emily. You have had terrible news and to cope with this your emotions are "on hold". Stay close to people who care about you.

Sincere condolences on the loss of your friend. :hug:

[ozzie_gal]

Thank you Louise :hug:

[hippy]

So sorry to read this Emily, people react differently to these type of events that happen in our lives, your feeling shock right now so your feelings are all over the place. Take care my friend and my sincere condolences :hug:

[ozzie_gal]

:hug: Thank u so much Dave :hug: I tried to give you some rep points but my comp went stupid, I'll give you some later :)

[sami]

I AM REALLY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS EMILY :(

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND KNOW I AM HERE IF YOU WANT TO TALK

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

[ozzie_gal]

Thank you Sami :hug: I'll pm you if I need someone to talk to...thanks so much!

[Sue]

Hi sweetheart!
Just seen your FB status :(

So sorry to hear this my thoughts are with you at this sad time.


Take care ((Emily))


x Suze x

[ozzie_gal]

Thanks Suze. :hug:

I'll be giving everyone rep points to say thanks as soon as the comp allows me to..don't know why it's not working

[RunningBear]

So sorry to read this :( My sympathies to you and all that knew her. :bighug:

[Sarcasticool]

***Normally I'm a stickler for correct spelling but my head is awash and I can't think so sorry for any bad spelling***

At 1am this morning an ambulance pulled up at the house 2 doors down, the home of a lady named maree, who's been a friend of our family for 40 years. She had enphesima and was on an oxygen tank. She passed out and her oxygen tube came loose..she wasn't getting oxygen to her brain.
One of her daughters arrived with the ambulance, they tried resussitating her but had to call in the top paramedic in geelong to come and work on her.
By 2:30am they were taken her to the hospital where she was on life support and was in a medically induced coma.During the day her 3 other daughters visited her and then they switched off her life support and she passed at 1pm.
Although she was sick, her death was sudden and unexpected and no one can totally understand how she died yet (if that makes sense) The funeral is going to be some time next week as she has to have a post mortom examination.
I'm in shock...I think. I haven't cried yet, and haven't really felt all that sad. I know she's better off now, I think that might be why I'm not sad yet. I'll be a blubbering mess at the funeral, I know that already. But right now, I don't really feel anything and I know thats wrong, I should feel something. Come to think of it, I've been like that with all those close to me who've passed. I've never felt anything when I found out they had passed (with exception to my friend Janelle who passed not so long ago) I don't feel sad or angry or anything, I literally feel nothing...that's messed up, right?

Sorry for your loss Emily, hang in there, we all handle grief and loss in different ways. Shock leaves us feeling numb at first.
Take care

Kerry

[phoenix moon]

I'm very sorry to hear this news, Emily ... and as others have said, the numbness is down to shock. I hope you've got someone around who can give you a real hug when you need one ... here's a cyber-hug in the meantime :hug:
Beth

[Fiona]

:hug: I'm so sorry Emily :(

Everyone reacts differently and as others have said you're probably still shocked by all that's happened :hug:

[Elaine]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss Emily. And the way you're feeling isn't messed up at all. Everyone grieves in their own way. Some totally breakdown upon hearing the news of someone passing away, others don't cry for a few days, weeks, months. Some don't cry at all. The way you're feeling is perfectly natural, just go with the flow sweetie. Am here if you wanna chat anytime. :hug:

[Brenda]

I'm so sorry to hear Emily :hug:

[ozzie_gal]

Thank you so much everyone! :hug: for everyone :grouphug:

Right when i was about to go to sleep last night I started crying and cried for 2hrs! I feel better for having done it though, it was a relief.
I'm a little worried now because this is the second person I know to pass in less than a month and they say everything comes in three's!

[Cas]

I'm so sorry Emily. :hug:

[missheili]

SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR LOSS!! :hug:
I THINK SOME PEOPLE DONT FEEL UPSET, SAD OR ANGRY ABOUT A DEATH BECAUSE IT JUST DOESNT FEEL REAL TO THEM OR LIKE THEY ARE GONE OR THEY JUST DONT WANT TO BELIEVE THE PERSON IS GONE!!!

[Mischa]

Ozzie my sympathies.

There is nothing strange about not feeling anything - the brain helps you cope by pressing the pause button on your emotions and you just feel 'numb'.

Grief is a strange emotion to live through. Everyone experiences it differently and there are 'stages' one goes through from numb, to anger, to questioning could you have done more, to heart rending sobbing. The first year of 'anniversaries' is the hardest to get through as you think 'this time last year' etc. It is so very true when folk say only time is the healer and it truly is.

There will come a day when you will be able to put the nightmare and horror of that night to the back of your mind and remember instead the wonderful times you shared with this lady.

Emphysema is a horrible illness to suffer with - both my parents had this and its a 'living death' gasping for air all the time and struggling to breathe. They also both had various cancers so - when both of them died it was a blessed relief. But I have to admit I'm still trying to deal with their deaths. Losing them was so hard for me and I'll admit that I need counselling because there isn't a day goes by I still don't cry at having lost my 'daddy' and my 'mummy' - my age is irrelevant - I feel as a child does inside.:(

[greyhoundgal]

I am so sorry Emily :hug:

[Kenny]

Sorry to hear about your friend Emily, I hope you are ok, if you need to talk, we are always hear for you, here some hugs for you :hug: :hug:

[TheBlueSky]

Sorry for your loss... my condolences

[ozzie_gal]

Thanks Everyone. The footy friday night was a nice distraction for me, I really enjoyed it even more so than usual (yes its possible)! I'm dealing with it better now I think, if I feel like crying I cry, I don't hold it in. The funeral is on Tuesday so I'll let you all know how it goes, my aunt from Tassie is flying over for the funeral as well so itll be nice to see her

[Tracy]

Sorry to hear about your friend Emily :hug:

[ozzie_gal]

Thanks Tracy, thanks everyone.
Well the funeral was lovely, very emotional but very lovely. THe wake was nice as well, everyone having a laugh and stuff.... it was a nice way to say goodbye

[TheFullEffect]

Man that is a tragic event. Take care of yourself while coping with the loss of your friend and my sympathies to you during this time.

[ozzie_gal]

Thanks Joe...I'm getting there. Kinda accepting now that she's gone. I walk past her house everyday and I still think "Oh I should go in and see Maree.." then I remember she's gone